31 July 2009

Still standing

Well actually lying down ...but you get the Idea....
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SchoolBoy has moved on . I let him know I loved him as he threw out his worst hate lines...

my Lil Man D is staring at the holes in our wall as I explain those were "bad choices"... he quietly says OH...
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Im crying because I feel like a failure even if i KNOW that Im not.... Lil Man D covers his heart and says Oh MommaRae..Oh MommaRae.... over and over in his sweetest voice....Ive cried more these last two days than I have all year!

My husband has been peed on, spit on, chased down by a screwdriver and put up with it all like a gentleman.
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Would I give up foster parenting? not a chance.........




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8 comments:

Ragin KJen said...

You've been so strong with all the crazy things that have happened lately..don't know how you still managed to hold yourself together and take care of my son and your kids. I thank you for that!

Chocolate Covered Daydreams said...

I am so very sorry but he's where he needs to be. I have dealt with this before and trust me, it hurts but then when you look at what's best, you really have to know that you've done all you can do.

Preston and Audrey's Mommy and Daddy said...

My goodness. You are such a trooper. Never a dull moment around your house huh?

J A C I L O O said...

good thing you got a DEPUTY with you. man oh man, you really are getting your filled with these children. but i know it will all pull through for you! its ok to cry it out! :) you are strong, and you are doing a great job!

Ronda's Rants said...

I am so sorry for you both...
I am praying for School Boy...
I pray God will watch over him...thank you for loving him!

D said...

The first time you have to move a child is soooo very hard. I know the feeling of failure. But I also know I have other children that must be protected along with my house and sanity. You did the right thing.

Ronnica said...

I'm glad that you're not letting this take you down. Not that it's a happy thing, but it's somewhat expected. When we let people in, we allow ourselves to be hurt, but the alternative is far worse.

MICHELLE said...

Wow, Rachel, you are so strong. God gives you that courage.